Does this make sense?

Acts 9:15 But the Lord said to him, “Go, for he is a chosen instrument of mine to carry my name before the Gentiles and kings and the children of Israel.

I read this today and was talking to my buddy Marvin about this. I want you to notice the "order" in which Jesus tells Ananias to tell Paul in what his calling is. First Gentiles, then kings and lastly the Jews. Paul's heart was for his people the Jews as he says in Romans 9:3 For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, my kinsmen according to the flesh. So naturally he would want to go to them first. I beleive when God gifts us and calls us to do something he first places us in things that are unnatural for a season. Do you feel like God has birthed something within your heart that you know, that you know, that you know, He wants you to do but then puts you in a place in life that doesn't feel natural? It's a good thing that He's done this because you're not "emotionally" attached to such a place in life. You're now freed up to do what He wants. There will come a time when God will bring to pass that which He's birthed in your heart but there's some things He wants to teach you and me before that happens. I don't just throw my daughter the keys to my car without going through the process of permit, drive time, etc. Then, when she's ready she'll truly enjoy her driving experience. If I could encourage you today, if you're in that place of "Why has God put me in this place. It doesn't make sense" know that God is taking you through His process. It didn't make sense when Abraham had to wait 20 plus years to have a son. It's didn't make sense for Joseph to be thrown in prison after God gave him a dream. It didn't make sense that David was a vagabond for twenty plus years after being anointed king. Through it all God was faithful and will be to you as well (1Cor 1:9) I would encourage you, the road you're on is simply a detour to get you to your ultimate destination. He will bring it to pass.

Restless

Have you ever felt restless about doing something for God that you know He's wired you to do and feels like the brakes have been put on. It's like He tells you something very specific and He seems to be carrying it out, then WHAMMO! It comes to a dead halt. As I was reading Matthew 9:36 - 10:42 today I noticed some things. First Jesus says the Harvest is great but few workers. There's plenty ripe for the picken so the natural thought is let's go do it! The disciples after watching Him do ministry for a while must have been chomping at the bit to get out there and change lives for God but the text never says that (Sanctified imagination on my part). I have to believe Jesus was allowing them to watch Him for a season. If you feel like I do, maybe Jesus just wants us to chill and "observe" what He's doing so we can better grasp and understand His ministry and what He has for each of us. Many times emotions get in the way and it's a "ready, fire, aim" approach. When Jesus does send us for a specific work He'll give very specific instructions about where to go and what to do ( Matthew 10). Point of this blog is we're not "waiting" to go to work. The work "is" the waiting.